things i'll never say.:: jackie and nina.

[jackie]

Jai noticed she was crying and it was almost crystal clear that they were his but he needed to hear her say it. “Bella…” he said as he looked at the babies. Now that he looked closer they most defiantly looked like him, they had his eyes. Jai tried to remember that night but it was a little hard, one because it was so long ago and two because he was drunk when it happened.

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Bella looked up at him, "Their yours Jai.." she sighed, shaking her head, then she got a little weak and she amost fell. She grabbed the stroller to support herself. Maya noticed and walked to her mother, "Mom?"

[jackie]

Jai waited for only a few moments but to him they felt like an eternity then he confirmed what he thought was true. Their yours Jai… and with that Jai was speechless. What was he suppose to say. Here he was twenty six years old newly married and just found out he had twins with his best friend that he slept with almost three years ago!. Jai’s thoughts were interrupted as he noticed Bella shift in balance and he grabbed her arm. “Why didn’t you tell me” he asked before Maya arrived at her mother and looked at Jai as he held onto the pale Bella.

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"I didn't wanna mess up what you had...Nina would have been devastated..she loves you Jai.." Bella responded. She looked down at Maya, "I'm fine baby..just got a little dizzy.." Maya nodded, looking at Jai, motioning for him to lean down to her, when he did she whispered in his ear, "She hasn't been eating. She misses you and what she thought you two would or could have had. She loves you with all her heart."

[jackie]

“Bells…we were together when I first met Nina, before you went away. Nina was still trying to win my heart over, win my heart from you” Pausing for a moment he shook his head. “Yeah Nina loves me she also loves many other things like the fact I work for her to pay for some high end purse or the fact that he wedding ring cost more then she has ever made, Nina loves me for different reasons then what real love is” he admitted. That was the first time he reveled to Bella that Nina and him were happy, okay so maybe Nina was but not Jai, he felt like Nina was a gold digger and it seemed like it.

Then when Maya waved him down he listen as she expressed concern. Jai looked up “Bella you haven’t been eating, are you kidding me.” he told her as he scooped up Maya in his arms and held her with one arm and helped support Bella with the other. He leaned in and whispered “I missed you too Bells’ Then he pulled away holding Maya close and holding Bella’s arm lightly. “We should get something to eat and talk more” he said as he looked from Bella to Maya. “What do you say.”

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Bella nodded, but pulled away from jai. She couldn' digest everything she was saying at that oint i time. She did need to eat though. She grabbed the stroller with both hands, looking at Maya and Jai. She missed seeing him hold her daughter.

[jackie]

Jai held her arm as he made sure she was steady and then lead go and wrapped his other arm around Maya as he stood beside Bella. “Come on there is a restaurant in the hotel that looks nice and it has an all you can eat buffet, so you know with me there you are bound to make at least seven trips” Jai joked as he smirked over at Bella. Jai was kind of putting on an act because he wanted to know more, figure out what was going to happen but he didn’t want to do it in front of Maya and he didn’t want to make Bella even more sick then she already was.

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Bellla nodded and walked with him. She didn't say anything. Maya rested her head on Jai's shoulder as they walked,"She'll probably go to sleep. she didn't sleep much last night. We could always have them deliver some to your room..or mine..doesn't matter.. That way we can really talk..while they sleep.."

[jackie]

Jai glanced at the little head resting on his shoulder and he nodded. “Yeah you know what I like that idea better we can go to my room it is just down the hall” He told her. “ We can order in and….” he paused “Talk.” Jai walked at the same pace as Bella as the neared his room and he began to think of how and where he was going to start to conversation when they entered the room and could talk about what was going to happen.

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Bella enetered his room, pushing the strller to one side. She would normally let the twins out but she felt to weak to be able to pick them up. Maya got out of jai's arms to get the twins out, then she grabbed their bag and and pulled a blanket out, laying it down then she lay down on it. The twins lay down as well but they were playing with each other instead of sleeping. Bella just stood there for a moment looking at maya and the twins, then she looked at Jai, smiled weakly and then fainted.

[jackie]

Jai watched as Bella was barely standing straight and left the stroller by itself and stood there. As he watched he was in awe some what watching little Maya take the twin out and lay them down. Was this their live for the past three years, Bella not eating, weak and Maya making sure everything was okay? This was not right and made Jai upset. Just as Jai looked from Maya and the twins to Bella he smiled as she did and then she fainted. “God!” he yelled as he ran over to her and got on the floor sitting next to her. He moved her tiny body onto his lap and shook her gently as he assured Maya she was going to be okay. “Bells come on” he said as he shook her a little harder then before trying to remain calm infront of Maya.

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Harley and Hayley set up on the blanket, "Mommy?" they both said in unison.Maya looked at them, "Mommy's fine. Daddy's gonna take care of her." She turned bck to Jai, looking at her mother. Bella just lie there, not moving but she finally woke up, looking at Jai.

[jackie]

As Jai sat by Bella trying to wake her up he realized something that just hit him hard, he was a father. As he heard Maya tell the twins that Daddy was going to take care of her. Jai stopped shaking Bella and glanced over at the children near the bed. As he looked at them he was still trying to take it in that he was a father and no matter how hard he was trying he still couldn’t fully take it in. Then he noticed Maya pointing to her mother waking up and Jai’s attention diverted to her. “Hey, you passed out Bells, we need to get you some food” he said softly as he looked into her eyes.

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Bella nodded, "Alright.." she sat up a little, leaning against Jai for support. She looked over at the twins who were starting to cry, "Its okay babies. I'm alright.." Harley and Hayley both looked from ther mom to Jai to Maya and back again. They finally got quiet and both lay down.

[jackie]

“Then after we are going to talk” Jai said not wanting to make her upset but he needed to figure things out with. He pushed Bella forward a little just enough for him to stand up and then he bent down and picked Bella up off the ground allowing her to stand on her feet as he held her from behind. Jai took another glance around and repeated what he thought of every second in his head since he found out about Bella’s and her children living situation, this was no way for them to be living in. The children deserved a better life, Bella deserved a better life.

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Bella nodded, "Okay.."

[jackie]

Jai helped to walk her to the bed and made sure she safe and sitting, not to pass out on the floor again. “I am going to call for food and pick it up, why don’t you try to take a nap with the kids Bella”

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Bella nodded a little, motioning for Maya and the twins to come over. harley climbed up on the bed and Hayley let Maya help her up. Harley lay down next to Bella while Hayley lay down near Maya. Bella closed her eyes and they were all soon fast asleep.

[jackie]

Jai called on the phone and ordered three kids chicken meals and three other baby type foods for the kids, then he ordered two of Bella’s favorite meal grilled cheese, she was so simple. Then on top of all that he ordered a hamburger and a steak and some fries. Jai planned on feeding Bella and the kids enough so that they would never get sick again, especially Bella. Once Jai was finished ordering he hung up the phone and placed his bag on the couch. Jai took a seat and placed his head in his hands trying to think of what he was going to do. He couldn’t just leave Bella and the kids, not like this, but yet at home he had a wife who he was suppose too be loyal to.

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Maya woke up a little later, looking around, "Jai.." she got off the bed, without waking the others, "What's wrong? I know you and I know when somethings wrong.."